*sigh* I'm updating again...yes, I'm also trying to procrastinate! Life has been so hectic lately. Besides working on a project with a lunatic, randomly dissing guys I use to like, making fun of my roomie, and loads of homework, there's nothing to do...actually that's too much to be done. Yea, it sucks.

Joanna: Good luck, Jit!
Me: So it's no longer "Jitler"?
Joanna: We're getting on a personal level. Jit sounds better.

Me: He says he's sorry! But I'm not gonna say it's ok.
Joanna: (stomps her foot on the ground) But it is!
Me: I'm expecting like 5 sorries!
(5 minutes later...)
Me: Alright. He said sorry 6 times!
Joanna: Jitler!

Anyhow, kinda lonely lately!

Well, let's sum up this week. Boring? Maybe. Tiring? Maybe. Stupid? Definitely. My week started off majorly boring and it ended in a majorly horrible state. I've come to a conclusion that certain guys are jerks...or maybe I should just say asses. When a person has a girlfriend/boyfriend, I think they should make it known to their friends. Or better yet, if your friends ask you, maybe you should tell them the truth!!!

Anyhow, after getting that across, some stupid stuff also took place. Just last tonight, after helping my roomie with her bed-risers, she confirmed the manliness in me. I was actually bench-pressing her bed, which apparently amazed both her and Miss Chen. When we first started putting in the bed-risers, Jobo and I were in charge of picking up the bed while Miss Chen puts in the bed-risers. Unfortunately, since her bed was next to the wall and between the dresser and her desk, we had a trouble picking up the bed. After getting the outer legs of bed on the bed-risers, we come to the conclusion that we could not fit our hands between the bed and the dresser. Just when we were about to give up, I decided to give it a last try by going under the bed and lifting it up from there. Jobo and Miss Chen looked at me and thought I was kidding until I started going under the bed. When I actually lifted the bed up by myself, the two of them stood there amazed at my manliness!

Joanna: OMG! You just bench-pressed the bed. Guys can't even do that! My roomie is a guy!

Joanna: Jitler just proved that she is a man!
(I walk into the next room...)
Me: Mee sun, Jobo is calling me a man!
Michelle: She's been calling you a man!!!

Joanna: Well, I guess it's dinner with my lovely suitemates...aka only you.
Me: Um...wouldn't that make you having dinner with your roomie only?
Joanna:

Joanna: I'm gonna be nice. I believe in karma. Ivan isn't all that bad! Look on the good side, if our lights go out, he can change the light bulb without a chair!

Last week was one hell of a week for me! Besides having a nervous breakdown, realizing the importance of friendship, and realizing that I'm screwed by totally falling for this guy, I guess nothing much happened...

Anyhow, yes, to start off with the nervous breakdown. I think October 11, 2004, is one day that I won't live to forget. And from the way I acted on that night, I don't think my roomies would forget either. Yep, my d-day finally came that day! The guy that I dreaded to meet finally showed up at my dorm. I have to admit the meeting itself wasn't all that bad, but what happened prior was one weird story. So, yea, around 9 PM, I get a call from "someone" saying that they'll stop by. Supposedly, I was whining about not letting him come over, but then, I had to get soft-hearted when I heard that he was really bored. Anyhow, I got Miss Chen to give him directions on how to get to my dorm. By the time I was off the phone, I literally SCREAMED. When I mean scream, I'm not talking about a small *eek*. I'm talking about an "AHHHHHH! HE'S COMING OVER!  " At first, all my roomies (by roomies, I mean suitemates) were laughing and enjoying the fact I was having a heart attack with a heart rate of 200 beats/min. When I started crying uncontrollably, that was when my roomies figured things were getting out of hand. Honestly, I had no clue why I was crying , but I was seriously scared. Of what? I don't know, but I was scared! I guess everything that happened in a year built up on that one day. I was breaking down so much that I was pacing the room back and forth and was slightly shaking. It took awhile before I finally calmed down (with the help of my roomies, esp. Joanna) and got myself together. So, yea, for those who always thought I was calm because I never freaked out about grades or anything...well, if you were there, I think you'd be scared too.

The conclusion of that brings me to my second discovery (my first being the fact that everyone has their break-down moments): friendship is priceless. A lot of people can say "friendship is unreplaceable, priceless, etc," but it takes a lot of things for them to realize it. And thanks to my break-down, I truly understand what friendship is. What happened that night when I broke down was scary, but I found out what was even more scary is if I was alone to go through that. I just needed some people there that night to be there for me and to let me know that no matter what happens, I have people backing me up. And those people are what I call friends. I'm thankful to each and every one of them for giving me that hug I wanted and for saying those words I needed to hear.

On that same night, I had a friend that also needed some encouragement. As corny as it sounds, I was happy I was there for her. Within one night, I needed my friends and my friends needed me. Just knowing that you were able to help out your friends and be there for them is a special feeling that you can not describe. You can always imagine how scary it is to be alone to face something that you're scared of by yourself. Knowing the fact that by being there, you can change that and offer a shoulder for a friend to lean on is something that just puts a smile to your face.

Lastly, along the side of all that, I come to one big realization: I screwed myself over by totally falling for a guy. Yes, it's a sweet feeling to like someone, but it's also scary that the guy that can give you the sweet feeling can also make you cry. After a year, I finally have to admit that I really do like this guy that stepped into my life as a friend. But I still find it scary that one person can make me smile one minute and cry the next. Because of him, some thoughts that popped into my mind were scary. Never would I have thought that jealousy comes with liking someone. Yes, it's been heard of many times, but I never thought it'd happen to me. Now I finally understand what it means to change for someone. It's not that you purposely change, but it just happens. Can you imagine someone that is able to shut me up just by being there?  Can you imagine someone that is able to make me freak out everytime he says he's visiting?  Can you imagine someone that is able to make me turn into a girl?  Well, apparently, my roomie is really enjoying the existence of this "person" since it's the only time that she gets to insult Jitler to her face without me threatening to kill her and insult her back.

While I was crying...
Me: Is everything gonna be ok?
Joanna: Of course! Why wouldn't it be, silly girl? OK, stop crying. This isn't the Jina Lee I know. The Jina Lee I know only throws the phone and yells at people!

Joanna: Why's Yvonne's name not Yvonne?
Me: Yvonne's her middle name. We have the same middle names.
Joanna: What? So is her name Yvonne Yvonne Chu?
Me: Try I-Heng Yvonne Chu, smart ass!

In front of a "person"...
Joanna: Jitler, I wouldn't drink that much soda if I were you! You know why!
(I glare at Joanna...)
Joanna: Hey, just reminding you about getting gassy!
Me: *mental note* Kill Jobo when I get back to the dorm.
Joanna: *mental note* Go back and sleep!

Becky: Is he coming over?
Me: Not today. He's going to the Statue of Liberty today.
Becky: Where is that?
Me: Duh? In New York!
Becky: Oh, how?
Me: By ship obviously!
Becky: Why not by train or bus?
Me: You do know that the Statue of Liberty is in the middle of the ocean, right?
Becky: Never mind.
Me: But he did say he was gonna come over to my dorm last night.
Becky: To see the Statue of Liberty?
Me: What?!?!

Me: OK, he's coming over now. I'm seriously freaking out right now. I'm crying non-stop.
Becky: Oh stop it! Your eyes are small already. If you cry anymore, you won't be able to see anything!
Me: Gee, thanks!

Me: Um...did we just pass Fusion Ti?
Joanna: Good job, Jitler. Even with those small eyes, you can see!
Me: I wouldn't talk. Not like you have big eyes!

Michael: Turn left or right?
Joanna: Left. Follow the sign for Route 1.
Me & Ammy: That would be right!
Joanna: I said right!
Me & Ammy: You said left!
Joanna: Hey, Michael's driving and he didn't say anything. I think you two should shut up!

Joanna: Wow! This is the side of Jina Lee that I've never seen. She actually tried suppressing a burp! And when I insulted her, she didn't even talk back.
Me: I know, I think you like having the presence of "someone" here just so you guys can get me back for the times I "Jitlerized" you.

Me: Mee Sun, are you studying tonight?
Michelle: Depends. I wanna know if we're gonna have visitors tonight. If yes, then tonight cause it'll cut short the "Jitlerizing." If not, maybe tomorrow.
Me: Well, I'm in a happy mood, so I suggest tonight.
Joanna: Yea, she might actually have a smile on her face!

Me: Damn. I know I'm asking for it, but I have a Korean question.
Michelle: No, I'll be nice. I believe in karma. What's your question?
(After my Korean question...)
Me: Michelle, start studying!
Michelle: But...
Me: Sorry, karma doesn't work this way. You're still getting "Jitlerized"!

Jitler is my new nickname at my suite. It's Jina + Hitler. (Apparently, it's better than being called "Midget Man.")

Well, I had a fun and interesting day on Sunday. It was planned that I was gonna spend the day with Becky & Raymond at Chinatown on Sunday, which I did, but only after some weird happenings...

Becky had previously told me that she'd meet up with Raymond at Penn Station and would be in Chinatown by 10 (10:30 latest). Meanwhile, I told my dad I needed to get there at 10, but I really expected us to arrive at 11 since he's always really bad with time judgements. Let me remind you that Raymond and Becky are those types of people that are never later, while I'm usually late 30 minutes on average. But yesterday, as ironic as it was, I was in Chinatown at 10 AM exactly. After giving Becky a call, she told me that her train was running late and it'll take her at least another 45 minutes since she didn't even reach Penn Station yet. Having nowhere to go, I found a McDonald's in Chinatown and sat there waiting for them. Thirty minutes later, I got a call from Becky...

Becky: Yo, I'm at Penn Station, but I can't find Raymond. I'm half an hour later. I think he left!
Me: What?!?! But Raymond would never just leave you like that. Try looking around. He's probably just waiting somewhere!
Becky: OK la! I'll look around. Talk to you later.
(20 minutes later, my phone rings again...)
Me: Did you find him?
Becky: No, but I'm in Chinatown now! Where are you? I'll come and find you.
Me: I'm at McDonald's.
Becky: There's a McDonald's at Chinatown? Where the hell is that?
Me: *sigh* How about you tell me where you are?
Becky: I'm at "Kwong Kee."
Me: Where the hell is that?
Becky: *sigh* How about we just decide on a place?
Me: Fine, the "Big Wong Restaurant"?
Becky: Where is that?
Me: Never mind. How about the bakery that we always go to?
Becky: Okie dokie.
At the bakery...
Becky: It's God's way of playing a joke on you!
Me: It's not fair! I got all dressed up and it's even sunny today. How can you and Raymond possibly lose each other at Penn Station? Why is fate torturing me this way?
Becky: Give it up! It's just not meant to be! If you get to see him today, you still have a chance. Then we can still work on it. I'll treat you to lunch today. You already feel like crap! 
(In the middle of our lunch, Becky's phone rings. After hanging up...)
Becky: Raymond is on his way. The train broke down and he was an hour and a half late. I'm impressed. You still have a chance. Lunch is on you then.
Me: Sure! Anytime!
Becky: Damn, I should have ordered more.

So, yep, I did end up spending the day with Raymond & Becky in Chinatown...

Becky: Well, you had your day today! You got free dinner & spent time with my cousin!
Me: Hey, at least I paid for your lunch! You didn't put out anything today!
Becky: Oh please! It was a whole $4 for my lunch. I should have eaten more! I'm gonna have to apologize to my aunt anyhow for introducing you to my cousin! I'll end up treating her to dinner!
Me: Gee, thanks! Who knows?!?! Maybe they'll like me!

Joanna: I'm gonna go back to Hong Kong with you when I'm in 12th grade!
Me: Um...great?!?! But you're a junior in college already!
Joanna: Shut up! You know I meant a senior in college!
Me: Either that or you plan on starting your education all over again.

While Joanna was sewing her slippers back together, with her legs crossed and a needle in her hand...
Me: Wow! I should really get a picture of this. You look really girly right now!
Joanna: You do know that I have no f*cking clue what I'm doing, right?
Me: Well, now that you tell me and I look closely at your hands and see random thread criss-crossing...yea, I know you have no clue!
Joanna: OK, so what do I do I'm finished
Me: Tie a knot!
Joanna: Where were you when I needed help in sewing? Now you tell me all this?
Me: I don't actually know. Probably by the time I'm done, you won't be able to even put your foot into it!

At 2:00 AM...
Michelle: I want a snack to keep me awake! Come to get Twizzlers with me!
Me & Joanna: Sure!
At the vending machine, Michelle puts $1 in and her Twizzlers get stuck...
Michelle: What the f*ck?!?!
Me & Joanna: *cracks up*
Michelle: I'm gonna go get a stick!
5 minutes later...
Michelle: I found a stick! (holding a newspaper)
Joanna: Michelle, that's not a stick!
Michelle: I don't care! It worked last year.
After figuring out the "stick" doesn't work...
Joanna: Michelle, put another $1 in and you might get 2 Twizzlers.
Michelle puts in another $1 and the Twizzlers still stuck...
Michelle: Damn it!
Me & Joanna: *cracks up*
Joanna: Here, try this!
Joanna goes to the vending machine and starts shaking it. Soon, one of the Twizzlers fall out...
Joanna: Michelle, you know what? Try putting in another $1. You'll get 2 for sure this time!
Michelle: You just love seeing me waste my money, don't you?
Joanna: Think of it this way. The Twizzlers are only $0.75. After this dollar, you'll have $0.75 in change!
Michelle:
Joanna: Just put it in and press D4!
Me: I say D5.
Michelle: D5 won't work!
Me: Yes, it will. D5!
Michelle: If it doesn't work, you're paying for it, Jina!
Me: Never mind, D4 it is!
Michelle:
Michelle puts in her money...
Me: Press D6!
Michelle: Why the f*ck would I press D6?

Joanna: I'm getting bed raisers. I'm gonna need your help putting them on the legs of my bed!
Me: Michelle, Joanna's talking to you! You should answer!
Michelle: Huh?
Joanna: No, I'm talking to you!
Me: Why me?
Joanna: You're the manliest in the suite!
Me: Oh please! I'm gonna need motivation!
Joanna: Yea, there's a cute guy under my bed. Lift it!

Joanna: This bed is fun! Jump on it, Jina!
I get on the bed and jump on it...
Bed: *crack*
Joanna & Michelle: Sh*t! You broke it!
Joanna: It's alright. I didn't tell you I loosened it for you to break!

Joanna: Jina, can you write my essay for me?
Me: Well, I thought I was too manly?
Joanna: Whatever! You are! But you can still write my essay!

Yay! I'm going to Chinatown tomorrow! OK, fine, it's not really Chinatown that's getting me excited! I'm gonna be spending the day with Becky and Raymond! Yay! I'm praying everything turns out good.

Jesse: Where's Michelle?
Me: She's sleeping. She went out with her mom today!
Jesse: What does she do with her mom? The marathon? She's always so tired!

Me: Do you know him?
Jesse: Yea, he's gay!
Me: Are you serious?
Jesse: Yep.
Me: Damn, I lost all hope in guys!
Jesse: Hey, maybe you should turn gay too!

Me: That guy is cute.
Michelle: But he's kinda girly!
Me: Yea, but I like guys with a girly profile!
Joanna: Jina turns into a lesbian!